My life can’t get much more pathetic
Everyday I come home from school and I clean the house, I help my mom with whatever she needs and do anything that she can’t do because of her Chemo. I study every night and for some odd reason I still can’t get my grades into 70s, I don’t fit in and it’s no secret, the only person who ever walks with me is my little sister, no on likes me and they all talk about me, living in a small town where all the kids grew up together is harder than you think, every one knows each other so well and they all have such amazing friendships and I’m an outsider. Almost every weekend I’m in my room waiting around for my crush, he literally tells me that we’ll hangout and then never actually shows up, and I always do my hair and I always do my makeup like I expect things to be different, but everything in my life is the same everyday. Go home, take care of mom, study, sleep, school, repeat. and on weekends I sit around and wait for that stupid boy hoping something will change, but it doesn’t. Then here I am feeling like a loser because all I want is that dumb boy to just hold my hand and say things will be okay, because I just want a friend to listen to me like I listen to everyone else. But the second you reach out you’re being an attention whore.